Monday, October 6, 2008

I wanted to.

Why did you come with me?

This is one of my favorite exchanges of dialogue. It's from Final Fantasy IX; Zidane is a thief/bandit, Dagger is an exiled princess. I hope no one scoffs at this being from a video game; these days, the writing in games can surpass that of books or movies. Games have been recognized as a form of art, and so while there are games like Madden and Grand Theft Auto that are just senseless gameplay, there are other games that actually build characters and even philosophize about life.
  • Zidane: "It's okay. Keep singing. 'Cause it's our song, right? I'm surprised you found this place. You got the talent to be a bandit! How 'bout you and me team up? We'll call ourselves 'The Betrothed.'"
  • Dagger: "My talent's up to snuff, but that name isn't."
  • Zidane: "Hehehe. You're really something these days."
  • Dagger: "If I am, I must've gotten it from you."
  • Zidane: "Naw... It's all because you made the effort to learn."
  • Dagger: "No, it's because you stuck with me. Without you, I couldn't have made it to Lindblum, much less seen a whole new continent. Everything I tried to do on my own was a total failure. I couldn't stop my mother... At times I almost lost hope... You helped me so much... Not just you, either."
  • Zidane: "Yeah... Vivi and Eiko helped out at the Iifa Tree. Quina was real helpful when we left the continent. Freya, Steiner...and even Beatrix, who I thought was our enemy."
  • Dagger: "I haven't forgotten... I want to believe everyone is alright, but sometimes I just can't. I hope I can live up to the hopes of everyone who has helped me."
  • Zidane: "You don't have to feel so responsible, Dagger."
  • Dagger: "But I do!"
  • Zidane: "Nobody wants you to feel that way. They didn't do it all for you, either. Each was following his own path."
  • Dagger: "His own...path? Well, what about you?"
  • Zidane: "Huh?"
  • Dagger: "Why did you come with me?"
  • Zidane: "Hey, that's Ipsen's line."
  • Dagger: "Ipsen? Who's that?"
  • Zidane: "Ipsen is a character from a play, but he's a real-life adventurer. I think the play is based on his adventures. It kind of goes like this... Ipsen and his good friend Colin worked at a tavern in Treno. One day Ipsen got a letter. The letter was so wet from rain that most of the writing was illegible. The only part he could read said 'Come back home.' Nowadays, we have airships and stuff, but back then, it was really hard to travel. He didn't know why he had to go back, but he got some time off, gathered his things, and set out on his journey home. He walked a thousand leagues through the Mist. Sometimes he was attacked by vicious monsters, but he made it, because his friend Colin was by his side. And then, after much time on the road... He had to ask Colin something. 'Why did you come with me?'"
  • Dagger: "And? What was Colin's answer?"
  • Zidane: "'Only because I wanted to go with you.'"
I think there's something beautiful about this. Far too often in life we make excuses for why we do things. I know I do. I call friends up to play video games or watch movies, I ask girls out to movies or dinner. Sometimes I do so because there's a movie I really want to see or I have an urge to play 'More Than a Feeling' on Rock Band. Othertimes, I might not actually want to play video games or watch movies or go to dinner, I just want to be with person, but I'd never say it. It's a social faux pas to tell a girl "I just want to be with you." Society dictates that we come up with a reason or activity to do with them, something you would both enjoy so you have an excuse to do it together.

Most of the time I just feel like it's a lie. The activity doesn't matter; being with the person does.

I think the only person I've ever been able to call up and say "do you want to hang out" and actually mean "I have nothing planned and nothing in mind, I just want to sit around with you" is Lee. Everyone else I feel like I need a reason to see them. I wish I didn't.

Just wanting to is enough.

I hope someday to meet a girl whom I'm comfortable enough around that when she asks "Why did you come with me?" I can respond "Only because I wanted to go with you," and have that truly be enough of a reason.

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