Friday, November 28, 2008

Let it be

Inside my mind

It's been recommended to me on occasion that I should perhaps stop analyzing everything. Most people I talk with are somewhat perplexed how I manage to function if I am analyzing every bit of information I can. For me it's all I've ever known. It doesn't bother me because it's the norm.

I suppose it could be beneficial if I pulled back a little bit and instead of trying to understand the how and why and what of everything perhaps just let some things happen. I feel odd doing so. Not because it bothers me to not know why something happens - it does, though - but because my mind will still be working these things out and figuring out why something happens; I'll just be denying my conscious train of thought from accessing that information. It's like watching a movie and then reading the book the movie is based on and trying to not picture it as the movie showed it. The images are their, the knowledge of what the characters and world looks like, and all I'm doing is trying to deny it. Unless the movie got it severely wrong I rarely envision it any differently. Daniel Radcliffe was always what Harry Potter looked like to me. Immediately after seeing the previews for The Fellowship of the Ring, Viggo Mortensen, Ian McKellen and Elijah Wood were Aragorn, Gandalf and Frodo respectfully.

Just let go and let it be

I don't know how to shut off my subconscious from solving the puzzles of life and analyzing ever bit of data my senses collect throughout the day. Maybe some day I will. I imagine that will be a rather boring day for me. Either that or I'll experience nirvana. I'd like that.

1 comment:

Orga said...

I've always thought nirvana was an understanding... just not in the way you're used to.

You've got that deductive understanding going on, whereas I always understood nirvana to be an intuitive, holistic understanding of everything and our place in it.

No telling what you'll get when you turn your brain off, though. If you ever figure out a way to stop asking why and how, let me know.