I'm confused. I'm seriously confused.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what I want. I don't know why I go to work each day. I don't know why I hit my snooze button for 45 minutes each morning just to get out of bed when all I want to do is crawl back under the covers where it's warm and safe. I don't know why I put premium gas in my car instead of the regular. I don't know why I made rice yesterday. I don't know why I haven't been to the gym for two weeks or why my diet has gone to hell. I don't know why I get so lost inside my own ****ing head. I don't know why I can't just let life go. I don't know why I care so much. I don't know if I should.
I don't know why I have so many songs by The Doors on my ipod. I don't even like them that much.
I don't know what to do about the kitten that sleeps on my front steps every night and rubs against my legs whenever I walk past. I want to take him in and take care of him every time I see him but our landlord doesn't allow pets.
I don't know where I'll be in six months. I don't know if I'll be preparing for graduate school, looking for a new apartment, or moving to a new city. I don't know which of those things I want. I don't know if I want any of them.
I just wish the world would stop turning so I could figure my life out.
Still, I do know that I like puppies. A good friend sent me this (see below) last week, and right now I'm quite grateful, since it's the only thing that's made me smile all morning. It's a live stream of a litter of Shiba Inu puppies. They're adorable.
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(SPOILER) Buffy Season 9 #10 preview.
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http://www.darkhorse.com/Comics/Previews/19-222?page=0
Three-page preview is up on the Dark Horse website.
7 hours ago
6 Comments:
Sounds like you are having one hell of a day! Stop. Take deep breathe and hold....now exhale. Those are my very unwise words on nonsense for the day. All you can do is just keep breathing.
I love those puppies. I was addicted to them a few weeks back, I would just sit and stare at them, even when they were asleep.
I looked up the definition of the word 'Why' and I was met with more questions, I just giggled and decided the universe has a very strange sense of humour indeed. I don't really need to know 'Why?', I'm more of a fan of "Why not?"
Be careful of asking too many questions, it might lead to answers.
Brooke - I tried the breathing thing. It worked ok. Then I tried combining it with a chocolate donut and it worked alright. So I tried it again. Now I feel kinda sick.
Pandah - I always ask questions and I do find a lot of answers. The problem is believing the answers.
Yeah....I could have told you that chocolate donuts and holistic breathing aren't real great together. Sorry I didn't warn you sooner.
I vote that you move to a new apartment that allows pets. Then you can bring the doorstep kitty and get one of those cute puppies too. That could solve a few of your conundrums (housebreaking could bring on a whole new set of problems, however)
dude, that first paragraph was so 'me.'
I may have found an apartment in Fargo for cheap. You could always... you know... work at Barnes & Noble and be happy.
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