My kind of night out

Me in 40 years

I've spent a lot of time by myself recently. Mostly because I just want to be alone. I haven't had a desire to be around people. I haven't really had a desire to be in groups of people or around anyone at all. I just want to do my own thing and be left alone to do it.

Being alone feels good. I've been enjoying it quite a lot this week. I think I'm slowly becoming a hermit. And I'm oddly ok with that.

For most people, when they say they need a night out they mean going to a bar, going dancing, going out with friends -- something generally associated with "night out." I guess I'm different. Tonight I just want to go Barnes & Noble or Borders, order something from the cafe, find a book, and just sit there and read. And so that's what I'm going to do and you can't stop me.

I've also realized that I currently have little interest in dating. I don't mean I've given up, but rather that I'm content right now and I don't want to muck it up by making it unnecessarily complicated.

I also think I begin too many sentences with "I." I don't know how to change that.